...or lack thereof. I just watched the first 3 episodes of the fourth season (I had no idea which episodes were, but IMDB.com has kindly provided the information). And boy, was I surprised! I mean, I don't watch the show, but the weird threesome caught my attention and then the psychiatrist telling Christian that he might be in love with his partner, Sean. And I just LOLed at that! xD And then Christian was speechless, like he was considering it. And I just went from LOL to "OMG Slash in canon! O.O" in two seconds.
Wow. Nip/Tuck is unpredictable, that's what I've been told and I confirm it.
Well, I thought that slash writers must be having a ball at this! But my main source of fanfiction, fanfiction.net, is surprisingly short on Nip/Tuck fics, particularly slash ones. Why? I can't say I'm affected because, like I said, I don't watch the show. But after this I might actually give it a shot. O_o
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Friday, December 21, 2007
Scared
I'm scared. I'm scared that things change again for the worse. You see, I used to be on the pill for about two and a half years and I felt myself change. I lost interest in many things, mainly anime and yaoi.
But in the beginning of September I stopped taking it, and just a couple of weeks later I felt the difference. I started reading fanfiction again, adopted a new fandom, caught up with Naruto (didn't watch it for 2 years, the fillers didn't help either) and even read the manga, I wrote more of the script of my own manga, I even started writing fanfiction! (I never finished a fanfic in my life, but these I'm writing have a big chance) I basically went back to my old self.
However, today I started taking the pill again, and I'm scared that history will repeat itself. It's a different pill, though, I'm testing around to see if this one doesn't change me. If it does, I'll try a different one. But this could mean that my fanfictions won't be finished after all, at least not anytime soon, while I adjust.
At least this new gynecologist I went to today is a lot better than my previous two. The bad thing is that I'm going to lose my health insurance in January, so it's going to be a lot more expensive from now on. The reason I'm losing it is because I quit college and I am not currently studying. It's the government's health insurance for public servants and I had it because I was considered dependent on my mother, who is a teacher in the public school system. But now I'm not studying and I don't have a decent job either, so yeah, I'm scared. I'm neither dependent nor independent. I'm just in trouble.
Two days ago I went to see another doctor, my plastic surgeon, a brilliant man with a great sense of humour, a man I respect, a role model. I've known him since I was 15 years old, 6 years ago. I was born with one less boob, so he built one for me. :P He operated on me when I was 18, and then at 20 last May. He asked how I was doing in college. And I told him I had quit. He said he was disappointed and sad, that he didn't understand young people nowadays (he has two kids with about the same age as me), that we think life is easy.
He wasn't mean, he meant well. But hearing this from him, especially him, hurt like hell. I cried silently on the way back home on the back seat of the car, mom was driving and brother sitting in the front. It was a wake up call. I needed to hear this again, I know it, but it was still painful. I cried some more at home, but not nearly enough as I would've a few months ago. I guess I either grew up just a bit or I became desensitized about my life. I sincerely hope it's not the latter.
I don't like the way my life is right now, that's for sure. I have a lot of growing up to do and to take responsibility for myself. The fact that I'm a bit antisocial doesn't help me one bit in getting a job, but I guess that's just me making excuses and I need to stop doing that.
And fucking Christmas doesn't help either. -_- It's just a constant reminder that I'm useless because I never know what to give people. No matter how long I've known someone, I never know what they want. Except for my brother and my boyfriend. This probably means I'm selfish, that I don't listen to others. Damn, huh? Yeah.
I really should stop making excuses right now. Yeah, I'm done.
But in the beginning of September I stopped taking it, and just a couple of weeks later I felt the difference. I started reading fanfiction again, adopted a new fandom, caught up with Naruto (didn't watch it for 2 years, the fillers didn't help either) and even read the manga, I wrote more of the script of my own manga, I even started writing fanfiction! (I never finished a fanfic in my life, but these I'm writing have a big chance) I basically went back to my old self.
However, today I started taking the pill again, and I'm scared that history will repeat itself. It's a different pill, though, I'm testing around to see if this one doesn't change me. If it does, I'll try a different one. But this could mean that my fanfictions won't be finished after all, at least not anytime soon, while I adjust.
At least this new gynecologist I went to today is a lot better than my previous two. The bad thing is that I'm going to lose my health insurance in January, so it's going to be a lot more expensive from now on. The reason I'm losing it is because I quit college and I am not currently studying. It's the government's health insurance for public servants and I had it because I was considered dependent on my mother, who is a teacher in the public school system. But now I'm not studying and I don't have a decent job either, so yeah, I'm scared. I'm neither dependent nor independent. I'm just in trouble.
Two days ago I went to see another doctor, my plastic surgeon, a brilliant man with a great sense of humour, a man I respect, a role model. I've known him since I was 15 years old, 6 years ago. I was born with one less boob, so he built one for me. :P He operated on me when I was 18, and then at 20 last May. He asked how I was doing in college. And I told him I had quit. He said he was disappointed and sad, that he didn't understand young people nowadays (he has two kids with about the same age as me), that we think life is easy.
He wasn't mean, he meant well. But hearing this from him, especially him, hurt like hell. I cried silently on the way back home on the back seat of the car, mom was driving and brother sitting in the front. It was a wake up call. I needed to hear this again, I know it, but it was still painful. I cried some more at home, but not nearly enough as I would've a few months ago. I guess I either grew up just a bit or I became desensitized about my life. I sincerely hope it's not the latter.
I don't like the way my life is right now, that's for sure. I have a lot of growing up to do and to take responsibility for myself. The fact that I'm a bit antisocial doesn't help me one bit in getting a job, but I guess that's just me making excuses and I need to stop doing that.
And fucking Christmas doesn't help either. -_- It's just a constant reminder that I'm useless because I never know what to give people. No matter how long I've known someone, I never know what they want. Except for my brother and my boyfriend. This probably means I'm selfish, that I don't listen to others. Damn, huh? Yeah.
I really should stop making excuses right now. Yeah, I'm done.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
And OMG another ad!
There's a new Christmas ad on the Apple site! :D It's seems kinda different from the others. :P They haven't announced it on mac_hearts_pc yet. I'm gonna go watch it now. ^^
Daily Show Reruns
In my country we are fortunate enough to be able to watch The Daily Show on cable. But the strike has affected us too and we are currently watching reruns. Well, all the better, really, 'coz today I GOT TO SEE HODGMAN AGAIN! :D *ahem* It was the episode in which he was an expert on the presidential candidates' appearances. And he showed up with his shirt open! xD Hillary makes people go crazy, I guess. :P I had missed this show when it aired here the first time, probably in mid August since we had a difference of about 2 weeks, and at that time I was away on vacation. Now I'm happy, yay! :D
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Legs
For the last 2 days I've been having this weird feeling that I'm going to break my legs. =_= I involuntary picture the bones breaking somewhere around the kneecap, however I don't imagine that much pain. I've never actually broken a bone before, but I guess it hurts like a bitch. It's kinda weird and a bit annoying, really. Hope it goes away soon.
Monday, December 10, 2007
More "Get a Mac" ads!
There are a couple more ads on the Apple site. And why am I extra happy? Because it's the first two I've watched post-fandom. ^^
Friday, December 7, 2007
Love Rules of Fanfiction
I've seen it happen so many times, but I just realised that it must be a rule after reading a Monk slash fic (I haven't even watched the show, but I liked the title of the fic ^_^u). So, first rule:
"When you are stuck with your crush in an embarrassing situation from which you can't get out through words, the logical thing to do is to lean over and kiss them."
Oh puhlease... does this actually work? Because this is rather immature and it sounds really stupid, especially if it happens with two men over thirty. -_-' (or something) But it seems to be a rule because it happens over and over in fanfiction.
I've actually interrupted my reading on the moment this situation occurred to write this. I'll now proceed to read the rest of the fic to find out if it worked. xD
"When you are stuck with your crush in an embarrassing situation from which you can't get out through words, the logical thing to do is to lean over and kiss them."
Oh puhlease... does this actually work? Because this is rather immature and it sounds really stupid, especially if it happens with two men over thirty. -_-' (or something) But it seems to be a rule because it happens over and over in fanfiction.
I've actually interrupted my reading on the moment this situation occurred to write this. I'll now proceed to read the rest of the fic to find out if it worked. xD
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Techslash and a new fandom
Two weeks ago I was in the middle of reading a very angsty NaruSasu fic (<sarcasm>and I just love angst</sarcasm>) when my boyfriend said there were new Get a Mac ads that we hadn't seen yet, three of them, actually. Great, I needed a bit of fun because there's so much angst I can take. And while I was watching I sudden thought came to me: are there any yaoi fanfics with Mac and PC? :P I thought this was so farfetched. I had never thought of that pairing before. xD But I searched for them anyway.
And oh my god, I'm caught up in a whole new fandom. :D Techslash! Mac <3 PC =^-^=
The thing is, I don't pair up real people; it's just plain weird to me and I think it would be embarrassing to the people in question. I prefer anime/manga characters that don't have a "real" human body (Sirius and Remus from Harry Potter are manga like in my head o_O). But Mac and PC are represented by two real people, actor Justin Long and author/humorist John Hodgman, so it was a bit of a challenge.
Then I discovered someone who has become my most recent favourite person. :D Jack is my favourite author of this fandom and also a brilliant artist. His deviantArt gallery has many drawings and illustrations of this couple and he is caffeine.bloodstream on fanfiction.net (gee, I sound a bit like a stalker. :s I read almost everything I could find on the internets (xD) about him because he is so awesome, and also captivating :) you have a fan here ^^). But you can find a lot more stuff on the livejournal community mac_hearts_pc; I've actually finished reading the whole journal 2 days ago. :P
So, what I was getting at with all this is that now Jack's characters have replaced my mental picture of Mac and PC in my head.
Another thing I'd like to mention is that when we are dealing with real people, slash is always controversial. But if Long and Hodgman get squirmy about this, then I have to say: don't. Because we, the fans, are not slashing you. We're slashing two anthropomorphic computers. And I suppose you agree that you are not computers. :)
My personal belief is that they are not really worried. Sure, Hodgman said at a book signing that he was aware of the fandom and he hated the person who had just reminded him of it. But apparently he was also blushing and he is known for his deadpan humour. And Justin Long, well, he actually said he has a mancrush on Hodgman. He also said that "[John Hodgman] has great skin, he is very supple, very tender and he's good with his hands." wow o.O AND in a magazine "[Hodgman] is so charming, I want to cradle him and give him gentle kisses.” I rest my case. :P
So no, I'm not worried about slashing computers.
(and by slashing them I don't mean cutting them in half with a sword! but you probably know that already, otherwise google it)
I have in fact become a bit of a John Hodgman fan myself. =._.= He's probably one of the very few humans that I've become a fan of. And he's a genius. If I were a man, I would have a serious borderline mancrush on him. Seriously. :P
Now that I think of it, if I were a guy, I would have mancrushes on several people/characters, like John Stewart and CSI Grissom (yeah, I mean it xD) But I'm a girl and it's weird to have crushes like that. I like being a girl, though. :)
Wow, I feel better now. I've been wanting to get this out of my system for two weeks. :D I'm happy. And I've babbled enough for now. Mata ne!
And oh my god, I'm caught up in a whole new fandom. :D Techslash! Mac <3 PC =^-^=
The thing is, I don't pair up real people; it's just plain weird to me and I think it would be embarrassing to the people in question. I prefer anime/manga characters that don't have a "real" human body (Sirius and Remus from Harry Potter are manga like in my head o_O). But Mac and PC are represented by two real people, actor Justin Long and author/humorist John Hodgman, so it was a bit of a challenge.
Then I discovered someone who has become my most recent favourite person. :D Jack is my favourite author of this fandom and also a brilliant artist. His deviantArt gallery has many drawings and illustrations of this couple and he is caffeine.bloodstream on fanfiction.net (gee, I sound a bit like a stalker. :s I read almost everything I could find on the internets (xD) about him because he is so awesome, and also captivating :) you have a fan here ^^). But you can find a lot more stuff on the livejournal community mac_hearts_pc; I've actually finished reading the whole journal 2 days ago. :P
So, what I was getting at with all this is that now Jack's characters have replaced my mental picture of Mac and PC in my head.
Another thing I'd like to mention is that when we are dealing with real people, slash is always controversial. But if Long and Hodgman get squirmy about this, then I have to say: don't. Because we, the fans, are not slashing you. We're slashing two anthropomorphic computers. And I suppose you agree that you are not computers. :)
My personal belief is that they are not really worried. Sure, Hodgman said at a book signing that he was aware of the fandom and he hated the person who had just reminded him of it. But apparently he was also blushing and he is known for his deadpan humour. And Justin Long, well, he actually said he has a mancrush on Hodgman. He also said that "[John Hodgman] has great skin, he is very supple, very tender and he's good with his hands." wow o.O AND in a magazine "[Hodgman] is so charming, I want to cradle him and give him gentle kisses.” I rest my case. :P
So no, I'm not worried about slashing computers.
(and by slashing them I don't mean cutting them in half with a sword! but you probably know that already, otherwise google it)
I have in fact become a bit of a John Hodgman fan myself. =._.= He's probably one of the very few humans that I've become a fan of. And he's a genius. If I were a man, I would have a serious borderline mancrush on him. Seriously. :P
Now that I think of it, if I were a guy, I would have mancrushes on several people/characters, like John Stewart and CSI Grissom (yeah, I mean it xD) But I'm a girl and it's weird to have crushes like that. I like being a girl, though. :)
Wow, I feel better now. I've been wanting to get this out of my system for two weeks. :D I'm happy. And I've babbled enough for now. Mata ne!
It's been a while
Oh gawd, sashiburi da nee... ^_^u
I've been busy, and my need to ramble has decreased, and so I don't post anything. And then I realise that there are many things I want to write about, but I like to write them in a specific order, and the subjects keep piling up and I block. =_= So here I am unblocking myself. :P
Random annoyance: I haven't been able to create a deviantArt account for quite a while now because my internet provider is blocked. Well, fuck you, people who abuse the internet! x@ And I keep forgetting to create an account while I'm at work because, well, I'm busy and I actually work. -.-'
I've been busy, and my need to ramble has decreased, and so I don't post anything. And then I realise that there are many things I want to write about, but I like to write them in a specific order, and the subjects keep piling up and I block. =_= So here I am unblocking myself. :P
Random annoyance: I haven't been able to create a deviantArt account for quite a while now because my internet provider is blocked. Well, fuck you, people who abuse the internet! x@ And I keep forgetting to create an account while I'm at work because, well, I'm busy and I actually work. -.-'
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